Me. No more hiding.

I was blind to who I had become. I knew I was fat but I tricked myself into thinking that was all I was. The truth is I had become a shell of who I was, who I needed to be. At my heaviest, at the end of last year, I avoided physical activities, was […]

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My Voice Is Back

I’m at the gym. My Voice is here. I try to block it out but the voice in your head is the loudest voice there is. You failed. You’re a failure. It’s too late. Give up. Look at the guy. Look at her. Look at their form, their muscles. They’re better than you. You’re doing […]

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Oh boy

Sometimes you hit a wall. Sometimes you hit a speed bump. Sometimes you get hit on all sides by a perfect storm of doh. So, here I am. Down 45 pounds and going strong. Then some things happened… First and foremost, I will admit I have become careless. My ultimate goal has always been to […]

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Softball

I played softball last night. With adults and running and hitting and throwing and holy crap I am sore. But I did it. 6 months ago. At 320 pounds, giant belly, old and sore, I would have skipped the game. But not now. It felt great to not feel like a giant blob while playing. […]

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Cholesterol Test Results

Eating a high fat diet I had concern about my cholesterol levels so I had a checkup with my doctor. I just got the results back and they are good. My total cholesterol is 123. LDL is 77, HDL is 43, and triglyceride levels are 46. The only thing off was my thyroid levels, which […]

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Emotional Perspective

Here is a photo taken this morning of me and my five year old daughter, Alice. Alice is a fireball of energy and laughter. She sings, dances, jumps, falls, gets back up, laughs. She and her brother are major motivations for me to get healthy. I am sharing this photo because 1) I love my […]

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Updated picture

I got a little depressed when I saw this picture. But only momentarily. I still have so long to go BUT I have made such an improvement. 32 pounds gone. 3 belt loops down. Shirts are fitting better. Progress.

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CARBS

I went to the grocery store with my daughter and she asked for powdered donut holes. Being a loving dad I said yes, knowing I wouldn’t be able to eat them. Being on the keto diet means low carbs. I get 25 grams of carbs a day and I get them mostly through vegetables. I […]

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Weakness discovered

I stumbled. Not badly, but I stumbled. I found a weakness. After nearly two months of no cereal, no breads and pasta, no legumes, no sweets (other than my keto chocolate cake a few times) I started eating 80% cacoa chocolate bars, which are ok to eat on keto. But I’ve discovered that I’m munching […]

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Ninja dad?!?

I’m going to be an American Ninja Warrior. Yeah, you heard me. This 40 year old, arthritic, obese stay-at-home dad is going to be an American Ninja Warrior. I’m crazy, I know. I’m also serious. During today’s weigh-in, the scale informed me that I am 30 pounds lighter than I was on January 1st. 30 […]

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A stumble

It’s here. I knew it was coming. I knew this moment would happen. A stumble on my mission. Over the last week I have been less disciplined on my food tracking. A little more careless on how much and what I’m eating. Even if my eventual goal is to be able to eat without tracking, […]

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Hammer Time!

I last wore this suit in December. The buttons were popping off the jacket and the pants were bursting at the waist. Now there is room to breathe in the suit and I’m down two belt loops. Not to mention the pants are starting to look like hammer pants. CAN’T TOUCH THIS!

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The Keto Box

As a Christmas present, my wife signed me up for The Keto Box. A monthly mystery box filled with keto goodness. Today I received my first box! IT HAS A CHOCOLATE BAR IN IT!!

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25 Flippin’ Pounds Gone!

HOLY MOLY WHERE DID IT GO?!?! 25 pounds. 25 pounds that I had with me at the end of 2017 are now gone. Forever. I lost them…And I’m never going to look for them. They are lost like a single sock in a drier. Lost like Jack and Kate and no, we DON’T have to […]

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37 Days and Counting

Thirty seven days. That’s how long I have been on this keto friendly journey. In that time I still have not eaten cereal, chips, ice cream, crackers, cookies, pasta, rice, beans. I have not eaten a handful of whatever lunch or snack I prepare for my kids. My family had Smores, I did not. My […]

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Robert and the ER

The plan that I came up with sometime in mid-2017 was to work on me, as a person. Work on my depression, my anger, my frustration with being overweight and then, when my mind was in the right spot, turn my attention to the number on the scale. Get my mind right, then work on […]

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My weight

It really is hard for me to talk about how much I weigh or share photos of how I look. It embarrasses me. Just saying the number out loud makes me cringe. For the longest time I thought being fat meant I was a failure. I was embarrassed meeting my wife’s coworkers because I felt […]

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Bacon burger!!

Not having bread during this diet has been rough, I’ll admit that. No cookies, crackers, bagels, donuts, etc etc. But I have found a keto friendly bread and holy moly!!! Cheeseburger!!!

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